Friday, February 5, 2010

A new year....a one-year-old....a purpose.

I would apologize for not writing in such a long time, but I've probably spoken in person with a majority of my (few) readers :) over the holiday season, and haven't had much time to write lately.

So, it's a new year.....Maggie turned one in January, and I can't believe how fast the year went by. I'm realizing more and more that time is something I need to be treasuring instead of wasting (which is what I am really good at doing). As much as I complain about the trials that being a mom can bring....I am loving my new role whole-heartedly, and I know I'll regret not savoring every moment more when my kids are older, and have no time for me :) Maggie had a wonderful first birthday, celebrated with her best baby friends and our close friends. She isn't walking yet, but she can stand on her own, and she walks with a push toy all around the house. She is such a joyous, happy child...I am sooooo very blessed to have her in my life. Her eyes are always full of light and love, and I can't begin to express how thankful I am that God has given this Gift to me. I know she will grow and change soooo much this next'unbelievable when I am with a 2 year old, and I realize that Maggie will be doing the same things in less than a year! The human mind is quite remarkable...the way it absorbs and learns soooo much in the first 5 years of life---another reason why I am so thankful to be at home with her, to share these experiences with her, and teach her as much as I possibly can about the world around her, and how much she is loved by her family and God.

Purpose in the New Year....

I'm really trying to make a conscious effort to enjoy every day I have with my family, and to not view my roles as mother, wife, and homemaker as stifling my own personal interests, hobbies and passions in life. I've realized that I am standing in my own way when it comes to the aspects of my personal life that I either want to pursue or grow in. I choose how I spend my free time, and most of the time, it isn't on all the things "I wish I had time for". The truth is, I'll never have time for anything that I don't MAKE time for. These things include: prayer, knitting, crafting, journaling, reading, exercise, baking, organization around the home, etc. I am the QUEEN of excuses, and I've finally decided that blaming is getting me nowhere. I can be a mom, and knit, and have time to do my prayers and read spiritual books....I can make time for exercise--and it doesn't have to be at an expensive, fancy gym with cute workout outfits to wear when I go. I've decided to turn our office into my "workout room", which is nice because I can watch workout videos on Netflix, and do them in the privacy and convenience of my own home. I have a variety of videos in my "que" and I'm excited to mix it up throughout the week. I thought about joining a gym, because it would be nice to get away for an hour, but I realized I would have to pay someone to watch maggie while I went, and on top of gym membership fees, it would be more than we should pay for something I probably won't end up using enough.

So, the goal is to wake up early....a new concept for me (we'll see how it goes) my prayers, and do as much of a workout as I can before Maggie wakes up. As it stands now, Daniel and I let Maggie wake us up, and I nurse her in bed when she does, so I can "rest" more. I could easily get in an hour or 45 minutes of "me" time in the morning before she even wakes up. Lately, I rely on getting this "me" time late at night, when the house is quiet and Maggie is sleeping...but by then, I am pretty fried, and I tend to gravitate toward mindless watching movies or surfing the internet. These are things that aren't edifying...and I can go to bed earlier so that I can wake up to do things that are very edifying, and will jumpstart my day in the best ways possible---with prayer and exercise.

We'll see how this venture goes. I didn't get up this morning....but I did take maggie on a morning jog in her stroller, which was hopefully I will do things like that on the days I fail to rise early. If anyone reading this is interested in doing something similar, or is already doing it...I'd love some accountability :)

well...maggie just woke up from a wonderfully long that's my cue to go! Hope you are all doing well!


Rachel said...

I have always been a non-morning person. But...I have finally figured out that I HAVE to get up before the girls do and get ready in order to be sane for the day. I hope that this works out for you! I wish I could figure out how to exercise in the morning - maybe that's the next thing I'll figure out.:)

Thanks, always, for a great post that makes me think. It was such a joy to see you guys over the holidays. Kiss that baby for me!

Mimi said...

I would be a morning person if I could get enough sleep. alas...

Iconography Girl said...

Good for you!

I don't know what you have down there, gym-wise, but here you can buy a 2-year, all-gym membership to 24 hour fitness for $300 at Costco -- which averages $12.50/month! Yes, you pay for childcare, which will end up costing more in the long run than the membership, but it is totally worth it. I joined last year and would take our younger two with me to the gym 3-5 days a week after dropping off our oldest at school. The little ones LOVED playing with other kids and on the play structures there, and I had up to 2 hours to workout AND TAKE A SHOWER. Plus, I got out of the house. It was great and totally worth it (even if I haven't been able to go since I found out I am pregnant b/c fatigue).

Xenia Kathryn said...

Hey Sis!
Wonderful post, I'm so glad for you and inspired!
Here's to a new year... only one month into 2010-- and each day is a new chance for renewal.

I miss you so much! Give Maggie a big kiss and a squeeze for me, and say Hi to Uncle Dan-Dan :)


Xenia Kathryn said...

P.S. I really need to start getting up earlier. I would love to be an accountability buddy, but I'm so bad that my "progress" would be embarrassingly unimpressive for quite a while.

Right now I'm focusing on getting to bed earlier and resisting the urge to START "crafting" (sob!) at 10 pm. In fact, I should think about getting to bed right now.

Baby steps? :)

Chelsy said...

I've figured out that early morning is the best time to exercise - I have the most energy and it's a great way to start the day. The trick is going to bed early! It sounds like you have some great goals. You are a great mommy for Maggie and wife for Daniel. I enjoyed spending some time with you at Christmas! Take care!!!

Helenrr said...

I may be older :) but I can relate!! Even now with one at home I still have the early bird issue. However I figured out how to get up early.
When the alarm goes off, do not Think. Roll out of bed and go start a routine...I put on robe & slippers, go to the kitchen, start the coffee, start the lunches, feed cat, let dog out (if dog is there), feed dog, use the bathroom-etc. By that time, I am awake enough to resist the urge to crash again. :) I manage to get up at 6 am. Of course, I'm terrible at going to be early, so like Katie, I have some work to do.
You are so right about how we are mistresses of our own time. I have the same issue. At the end of the day it is easy to just drift. However if I want to get anything done, I have to just remind myself, look you want to do this X, so just do it for 15 min. I might even use the timer. That usually works.
Don't beat yourself up though, if you don't always meet your own expectations-life is not perfect, we just need to try for progress. I'm my own worst slave driver :D
Take care, God bless,
Love Aunt Helen

Anonymous said...

I'm late in reading your February post- but you have expressed some excellent thoughts......and learning the beauty of delighting in all of the gifts and goals in your life!
Hey- that is a neverending process- but we're all on that path with you!!

My lawn is calling me on this beautiful off I go to mow it!! ( One of my peculiar delights)
I know- I'm weird!!!

Love you